[[Hand writing is unsteady and the page is smeared with blood and mud and possibly tears.]]

Tacq took my gold and then fucked me over.  He apparently has a softer heart that I thought and allowed Gelles and Lanfith to convince him what I'm doing with Xyra is wrong.  That fucking paladin wench broke my shoulder.  It's been a week and I can hardly do more than gather energy to soothe the pain, though I did finally get it back into the socket.  She'll pay for that.  And so will Tacq, I'll rip his throat out.

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           ~~~~  Xyra's spirit is slipping from the dream.  They're killing her.  The fools took her to Outland.

She'll die.  And it's my fault.

[[The rest of the page is torn as well as several of the others beyond it.]]

Tacq has agreed to work for me.  I paid him half his wage to ensure the job gets done.  And now to ensure Xyra is safe until it's over.

I made a mistake.  I asked Tacq why he didn't find me attractive.  His response we embarrassing.  He doesn't get involved with clients.  I am too long out of touch and a fool besides.  I fled after that.

He mentioned that Zoella and I looked to be close.  I corrected him.  Zoella is after the next big thrill, the next chance to have fun, I'm merely a stepping stone on her path to forgetting that she's been in the dream for ten thousand years.

I wonder what she is doing now?  I haven't seen her in many days.

Xyra grows stronger, it makes me proud.  My little sister will be a hero if we can find the Shan'do.  We must keep going.

I've been neglecting this journal.  Too many distractions and too many people. 

I destroyed a Nightmare creature today.  That makes one for every day that I've been alive.  I think.  I'm young for a Kal'dorei.  Aren't I?

She was suppose to have returned by now, but she hasn't.  Allorna that is.  Isn't it?

Why am I here again?

Music keeps playing, but when I try to find the source, it stops, so I've stopped looking.  It's really quite beautiful, but always just out of reach.  I ache to move closer to its tantalizing source.

Of all the people I should meet, I am astounded that I met a "druid" whose been wandering the dream for the past ten thousand years.  If ever there was a person who could help me, it is Zoella.  She must know more about the dream than anyone except for the Shan'do himself or the lady dragon Ysera.

Taking her for a lover was rather easy.  She does not play hard to get like so many of the "maidens" I've had over the centuries.  I do believe she is no actually maiden however, otherwise she wouldn't know how to use her mouth in such a manner.

On our journey to Ashenvale I'll ask her to help me.  I cannot completely trust her, regardless if we've shared a bed, one cannot trust a sexual bond to be as strong as a bond of loyalty.  I need a way to put her into my debt.  But how?

I've been away from the Dream longer that I anticipated.  I fear Xyra will not do well without me there.  It cannot be helped for now.

Date: April 16th
Place: Scryer's Tier, Shattrath City
Subject: Conversation with Gelles

• Spoke with Loganaar in NIghthaven, directed Gelles to Forest Song
• Gelles met a druid in Forest Song named Zoella, she had a few pieces of information
  
• Zoella herself was in the dream and her experiece was different from what Allorna's seems to be
• Allorna's been seen skulking around Forest Song as well as a place called "Bough Shadow".
• "Bough Shadow" is a borrow den much like the one Xyra is in. 
  
• Gelles went to "Bough Shadow" and found the Green Dragon flight and a portal to the Dream near by

We travel to Forest Song within the day.  I know not what we'll find, but we hope to find Allorna.

These letters, a copy of one and the original of the response from a week ago, feel like the start of something foreboding~











I met with Gelles.  She believes that Allorna's absence may simply be a part of her being a female druid.  The male druids had a pact with Ysera, yet the Tauren and the female druids were only recently added to the Cenarion Circle.

Still.  I've asked Gelles to talk with the Druids in Nighthaven and ask after Allorna.  I'd like to hear it from Xyra's sister herself that everything is well and as it should be.  As Gelles and I have both observed, Xyra has a knack for gathering trouble--apparently she can now do it while unconscious.

Someone was here.  A filthy human that uses Fel and shadow magic.  I can smell it.  I asked in Night Haven, some woman by the name of Lanfith.  Why do I know that name?

I felt someone nearby.  They weren't of the dream, but they were there, none the less.  I wonder if they were near my body.  I've been tempted to travel back while Allorna is away, but I don't dare yet.  I'm afraid she'll release more of those nightmares.  They made me so tired last time.

The nightmares here are stronger each time they come for me.  What if I can't stop them next time?  Will I die if they take me?  Will I go to Elune if they do?

~~ ~  Where are mother and father ~~ ~

Kael'thas Sunstrider.  The bastard is trying to bring Archimonde here once again.  I did not half destroy myself at Hyjal to have such a thing happen once again.  Damn this slow body.  And curse my inability to control my emotions.  I almost killed Xyra with those damn nightmare demons.  I will leave and return to her when I am in control again.

Damn those bloody Highborn.

Allorna returned briefly.  She's distracted by something.  Her focus is not on the Dream and the Nightmare, so her presence here is unstable.  It takes all my energy to keep her here.

One does not sleep in the Emerald Dream, but one can still have Nightmares and not just the kind that inhabit the dream.  I'm sure she didn't mean for it to happen, but all the same, having to destroy manifested demons has drained me.  I'm so tired~~~

It was an accident.  Reisha I mean.  It wasn't until after it happened that I realized what I'd done.  I was still learning to control the dreams and the way I can shift into the dreams of others.  I honestly believe Reisha's proximity was all that caused it to be her and not some random person.

I was thinking of what had happened to Xyra, what she'd told me had happened when she was a troll and under Hakkar's sway and the dream just manifested itself.  Reisha believed it was a real memory.  Perhaps it felt that real to her.  The dreams I give can be vivid.  In her case it was also terrifying, perhaps too much so.  Who wouldn't go half crazy with some troll threatening to eat you as a sacrifice to a blood god and then leave you on a raft, adrift in the middle of the ocean for weeks?

I had to kill her.  I had to end it.  It was my fault you see.  But it was still an accident.  And Reisha's machinations were harming more than just my sister.  It had to end.

Xyra's safe now.  She'll stay safe and she'll help me where it will do the most good--in the Dream.  I knew she would be the one to help me, I just had to get her into the Dream.  I didn't like the method, but the end justifies the means.  I know she'll understand when it's all over.  I know she'll see--I did this for all of us.  I will bring Shan'do Malfurion back and then there won't be a thing to worry about.

It's a good thing I like the color green.  It's quite now.  I wonder how much longer before it starts up again.  Allorna is gone again.  I wonder where she goes~

I dreamed about a troll.  Well, that's not quite right, I remembered a troll, except he was drifting on the water.  I remember he loved the water.  Why do I know a troll?

The time has come.  Mother and Father are deeper than I imagined, but that hardly matters, I've no need of them.  Xyra's ability to shift into the dream without help is worth far more.  She feels the ripples of darkness.  She knows where to go.  And there we fight.

I caught her trying to keep a journal.  I cannot allow her to risk us by doing such a thing.  This journal I keep outside of the dream, hidden in the den.  I've found evidence of that Gelles woman showing from time to time.  I dare not let Xyra know she's there.

We are no closer to finding Shan'do Malfurion, but at least we are fighting.  I find myself lagging behind, however.  Perhaps it would benefit my cause to return to the real world to train with the other druids again.  How do I keep Xyra from wandering or waking herself?

I saw a Shu'halo passing by one day.  It's curious to see others in the dream, even if only in passing.  I didn't follow her, no need to, she was not here to harm.

I know so little of the Dream, but I can feel things while I'm here.

I do not miss the time before.  Though I miss those that cared for me.  I can almost see their faces~

Allorna will return soon.  I dare not let her seem me writing again, the last time was painful enough.

Who is she again?  I can't remember anymore~